and didn’t think to pack or prepare myself properly, and thus was forced to scramble about for the last days, putting myself and others out instead of acting responsibly, i have been ensuring that daily i take care of at least one leaving task.

it has always seemed to me that the littlest habits are the most impossible. for example, i was always in awe of people who washed their dishes immediately. or people who had to do things and just did them, instead of mulling them over for hours or days before doing them. and i always thought, “oh, you think too much. you need to just do what needs to be done.” and then i kept thinking about it.

it is true that insanity is the repetition of the same task, hoping for a different result. and guess what? it is possible to just do things. and, it feels good. and it’s nice to tick things off the list. and it keeps you busy. win! win! win! and of course, 12 days from now i won’t be pulling out my hair or receiving deserved death glares. win!

(sometimes i feel like my goals are just to act like a normal human being. but that’s okay.)